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2007-06-18T23:13:00.000+08:00

I found the book i lent a year ago. Which was so damn lucky la. I've being looking for the book since sec5 touranament until now. Well. Today's not bad. I got to wake up late. And miss my breakfast date. And i found the book that i wanted. And my friend came over to my house hoping to play ball after mio was installed. But thanks to the uncle who should be here around 6pm. We couldn't play ball. Going gym tomorrow since none of my friends wants to play ball. Just so lazy to call friends down for a ball game. XD So today's not bad ba. XD. mio's not bad la. Hope wont crash. WANNA WATCH OCEAN"S 13! ha I WANNA CUT HAIR. lol. I WANT MONEY!. kinda fun.XD

2007-06-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

New skin. Im kind of bored of my old skin so i changed to this one. Which is much more simple. Yeah she was right about not everyone likes to be simple. Had maths "tution" with ying qi this morning. She was kind of hilarious to see. Freaky to feel. I mean she's just too energentic. Early in the morning. Well im quite clear with my maths now. And she wont be free till i-dont-know-when. But the thing is. she really a potnetial sale person. I dont know why i said that but... the way she teaches. Its just like selling the formula to me. But she sometime sounds out-of-tune. Ha and the first thing she notice about me was my bushy hair. I think i blushed (oh well). Went back home and dota with kenneth. HIS SO BORED!. HA. and i mean staying at home for just one day for him would be too much to handle. Its as if he would itch like a thousand bees stings. And im pretty broke now. Just so you know. My birthday's coming. Which is a really bad news to me and you. HA. Anyway. i dont feel like celebrating this year's. Im still broken over her. And good god i smoked today. An uncle offered me a cigaritte while my father was away. And i did try. And its a waste of both my life and money. Uncle. i want the 10 mins of my life back. And i mean it. But it took me away for sometime. Which was what i wanted la. I spent lots of time thinking of her lately. She told me i was a nice guy and a passer-by of her life. I dont know. I just dont wanna force another answer out of her. But... its like telling her im easy to give up. And im not pesistant.i've done nothing and let it go. Its the "right" thing to do.Ha. I dont know.

2007-06-03T11:16:00.000+08:00

Damn funny la yesterday.shall not talk about what happened.And im officially named ika!.lol.Which sounds nice la.Until my manager changed it after my attempts to take orders,which i messed up.After work we went for supper.Mangers treating!.Cause yesterday was pay day! Muahaha.But the food there sucks la.Not say not nice,but like cheat money one.XD.aburiya also about the same ba.XD. :X.but its worth it la.the food is so fucking nice.Anyway back to supper.We were talking about the chef that totally screwed my day like 3 days ago.He pissed off another guy yesterday.The guy shoot him la,then wong shoots back (wong is the chef).Cause it was a mistake order made by wong or something.And he didn't care.So derain which is the guy,just told the customer the item was sold out.(Which means wong the wang had to clean up,if you didn't know :)And my manger,which treated us,was even pulled into the fucking mess.Wong told the boss derian shot him in the back,and david,our manger was his accomplice.like so fucking hilarious la.Why would a fucking manager listen to a waiter.XD. If so then the whole of aburiya should be the accomplice ba.Cause wong the wang is so fucking the suck.And end of story wong the wang told boss to sack derain.I was thinking,if everyone in aburiya were to stand up.i guess wong the wang would recieve our hate,tenfolds more that he was feeling yesterday.Imagine recieving a birthday card that say,rest in peace,signed aburiya.Im so evil nowAnd im not feeling guilt.*chuckles.Also after yesterday's basketball match,i saw the real fat lady wearing a red tee shirt with the word ignite in front.Was laughing after she past me,just afraid she would go BOOM!.

2007-06-02T00:09:00.000+08:00

Beer really makes me sleepy,i had a cup during work,and im sleepy.And guess what i hate the damn sore chef 2 days ago la.he damn hilarious la..but at the same time,fucked up.im pretty sure everyone makes mistakes.And i made one 2 days ago.it wasn't really my mistakes la.but cause customer's always right la.but end up i had to put my name up on the whiteboard.means condemed.then everyone console me la.say doesn't matter de.but i just dont like la.like very lame la.i very malu la.the next day everyone talking about me.and they were talking about whether im suppose to pay.XDthen one guy took out the writing chit and wrote a "cheque".change the whole damn mood la.he very hilarious la.keep on talking about girls to me.XD then say qop noobs rox.! XD then today almost owned my friend with tiny la.almost.i got give chance la..XD.somemore i against str hero la.ah heahache again.great.peace out

2007-05-17T00:35:00.000+08:00

My horoscope says im trying very hard to learn things recently,but i would be overwhelmed by it.and to prevent it,try to make a decision on whether to go on a date,go for dinner,catch a movie.i know the readings are right.im so learning to relax and not be hot-tempered.but every single enviroment i am in denies it.perharps to not care would be a better option....or not.readings like this maybe ruins my life.i dont know.maybe a peek into the future was a bad idea.but nevertheless.i seek calmness.i seek love.i seek what we live to live for.

everyone's tired because of school's assignments dateline recently.even i is caught in the arm race.XD done know if i used it correctly...ha or should i use rat race.yeah.back to chasing the girl of my dreams.like i said.my readings denies what im trying to do.perharps i should stop seeing her. will try.

2007-05-12T02:03:00.000+08:00

HA! everybody on the 313! ha.stupid james.went art cafe with james fred and kenneth.its being ages since i last meet up with me old pals.and goodness are the singers in the cafe good.only 16!.i guess.cos its about the same age grp as someone i know.ha.pretty awesome.its like musical cafe im telling you.and its in a library.how wicked can it be!.and the girls are killing ha.AND we are trying to lose ourselves with the song "lose yourself".anyway school sucks.i just dont like my friends.dont know why.i dont like the way they treat things people.whatever la.but i just felt being used or something.then kana thrown away.scary la.

sometimes having a liking on someone doesn't mean you have to owned them.then whats the meaning of even liking her.weird.and sometimes it isn't about not telling the person you like you like her,just that whats she's doing is like.friends.and ignores every gesture you try to prove.it turns you down and your doubts comes in.right timing.what the fuk is that.this time its so hard.dont you know.im not given a life time to do this anyway. and i've fallen in love with cranberries(zombie)

2007-05-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

i wanna change my blog skin!.starting to hate the current one now.XD.watching spiderman 3 tomorrow!.woots.and good new i just finished my homework..like hell man.its tough man.yesterday i was posted to The quayside.that place is so damn busy la.non-stop working.and i got to know a girl.i dont know man.she just reminds me of someone.playing dota ALONE is so damn boring.XD

2007-05-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

SO bored..i hate school la.so lifeless.no fun de..lol...im still shy as ever la..The chio bu treat me to drinks today sia!.happy la..lol.worse la..i sprain my ankle again..while walking la..stupid hole...lol..then went play cs and dota.boring also.tomorrow's labour day.no work for me.Spiderman3's coming out tomorrow too!.ha

i wonder if being close to someone is bringing us to a different level or just staying put.because you can have what you're having as friends.just that you're having her as your own.its like...a status only.im really not sure.so confuse la.lol.scare to make wrong step also.BUT everything must try try try.maybe if the timing's right?lol..but staying as friends is quite xing ku la.surpressing the feeling is already killing me.

2007-04-17T21:13:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you're got problems you just cant find anyone who can help,who can talk to.Though there's this place for you to thrash things out.but after it you just dont free better.work study work study friends.i just realise im in my pink of health.my back aches.and shoulders stiff.im tired after walking pass a field.Problems i just cant hide just cant run away.do i have even...friends.?

2007-04-08T23:33:00.001+08:00

i finished two and a half war craft campaign in two days.im so amazed.at least it keeps me from going out and spending money.like.argh.recently went to billy.T_T.so while warcrafting.i had much time to day dream too.so much time that i begin to feel life very nothing.XD never mind.school's gonna start.haiz.when you've got no cash in hand.you just cant stand up.go on dates also need to think alot alot.sian la.lucky got war craft.ha.my friend recently complain to me say 2 days never go out liao.lol.wanna guess how many days for me?..XD

i just realise a person who i need to help.but im just afraid the more i help the worst it gets.ha.well maybe to me everyone at first sight is evil.bad.scheming.XD.hahaha.SHIT.going poly liao.cant think like that.ha.tomorrow going for my job's training.

HA.chances are meant to be earned.i will remeber that. XD.

2007-04-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

2007-04-07T00:34:00.000+08:00

After looking at so many pictures.i wanna draw!.im so inspired la.though i cant do the same.but.really feel like it la.ha.maybe post it up when im done.found a new job.venture era.at first thought it was like a scam.so didn't really want go and try.ha.its not bad after i went there.quite big lei.the products they sell like not bad also.ha.AND! i installed dota recently.i can play!.im so training la.day night also play.one day i think i die playing.like in the game.lol.joking.today went orchard with james.he sound like some girl i know la.lol.but he whines more.ha.joking.hes a nice good looking guy la.any girls like him.now's the time.thats the only hint.ha.i need 1000 dollar badly.i need my lap top.lol.and further more.i heard going to heaven means getting a place of peace.and 10 000 dollars.lol.XD.i feel like dying.lol.

2007-04-02T00:42:00.000+08:00

i wonder when is my worries going to end.

2007-03-26T15:14:00.000+08:00

idiot!.cannot go out.sprained my fucking ankle.im in my ''wheelchair'' always la.now like crippled like that.Tomorrow still got poly orientation.fuck.how sia.worst.today suppose to meet someone de.idiot.AHAHAHAH!.i guess im stucked at home for a few weeks.sian la!.wtf.now im hungry like hell.cant go out buy food.fuck!

2007-03-16T23:28:00.000+08:00

Today was just rushing to get my poly stuff ready and done.rush throught every daily rountine.then looked through every piece of document before going.went for a medical check-up.waited like....lol.then nvm lei.i did two urine test la.say got too much protien in it.like wtf.and it was 4.20 for it.Argh.then have to wait again.the check-up was broken up into three sections la..x-ray.height and weight.and a report by the doctor.the second urine test was unreasonable la.but i pee a whole fucking cup for them.make sure they get it right.first time maybe too little too concentrated ba.lol.then went down to jurong east mac there.got basketball matches there la.got ctss de basketball junior there.lol..come this kind of tournament so cocky.real thing like so bleh.so like say hi then bu guan ta meng lo.like so lame la basketball.naha.then got everything ready dad came and fetch me.then hand in the form and everything.worrying for money now la.hai.where to get money lei.then after the submition of the form i got a swensen treat.the food actually suck la.lol.ice-cream suck too la.lol.then went dota-ing.like shit la today.cannot farm anything.bone very hard to use la.so tofu.

today i weighed like 3 more kgs heavier.like so happy can?.lol.

2007-03-16T02:51:00.000+08:00

Recently being lesbian like very "in" lei.Min hui was right man.its a trend.but fuck la..my friends lei.lol.argh.today i beat my brother up.his just so unreasonable.end up getting my knukles hot red.i tell myself cannot fight anymore.but cant.i just cant hold it.i've bottled too much stuff up.people say im hot tempered.but.i tolerated to much liao la.yesterday soccer match also the same.i almost fight la.i stood up for my teammate la.he kanna bullied ma.i slap the fucking guy's face.then everone hold me back.so funny la.lol.but im doing it for the right reasons.im i right?.i just dont like being blamed.getting bullied.

another thing of the day.poly registration's dead line's tomorrow.so scratching my head la.so many things to do.need go banks..need go alot of places sia.how!.if bank full house how.die la.sian la.i dont know whats life's about. I WANNA DIE!.

2007-03-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

why sometimes people just go back on their words.i quit.but what have you done.you sound like i should do it.then you just turned your back and ignore me.what the hell are you trying to do. im like a puppet or something.just to play around?somethings that i cant fucking tell or say.i dont know man.just kill me or something.

2007-03-10T02:46:00.000+08:00

i fucking cried at work sia.stupid la.cannot stand it la.everything also my fault.tolerate till cannot liao la.then desmond talked to me.nice guy.promised to settle it.he said its already like bullying.lol. customer also scold me.staff also scold me.wth la.idiot la.alot of back stabers lor.today alot of times la.order come in i key in.then say i key wrongly.say if cannot read their writing then ask dont anyhow.where got sia.90 percent correct la.10 percent they wrong lo.i cannot work there liao la.quitting also must leave so unhappy.everything also can tolerate.but really unreasonable liao la.i good good to them,end up they take it for granted.i think tomorrow when i settle this things i use this line.i think quite powerful can.everyone knows i good and nice la.except for some.which im purposely fucking bad to them.tomorrow last day.time to rebel sia. :)

Woots james ask me to play soccer back to school.like so important can?.lol.

2007-03-01T21:38:00.000+08:00

im so tired today.dont know whether is it a fever or just fatigue.and there's this stupid headache stuck in my head.and i cut my hair today.wth la.not nice de.lol.today actually got work de.but end up not going.2 more days and play!.lol.being online is so boring.but yesterday i played my best in dota.not as weak like last time liao!. :)ok la..today fucking boring.also dont know why i bother to update. XD

2007-02-28T00:06:00.000+08:00

woots i bought new shoes.and im broke.fuck.$50 converse shoe.argh.now must get new hair cut.get more clothes.get.new bike.new com.wa.alot of thing lei.and im quiting work soon.need to play ah!.and go dating. :) XD i dont know why when i have money everyone's eyeing it la.i should use this for that and this and that.wth.$500.sooner or later also will use up de ma.only have a few clothes in my wardrode.lol.im going malaysia tml!woots.getting new shoes again.fake one. :) for multi purpose.then get..wah..alot of things ah!. today dota also fucking owning la!.tide hunter is like so gay lo. :) battle fury,hyperstone,power treads,ring,S&Y,ring of regen.woots la.super man lo.late game is like cannot die de la.but one bad thing.actually two.no three.first.its so fucking slow!.so travel is a must!.and a must must must is a battle fury.so farming would be easy.next ah.his very very tofu de!.early and mid.must be very careful.last skill also cannot anyhow use.also must be careful of bangs.just now 3 times la.like wah kao lo.sprit breaker is his nemesis.queen of pain also.erm.think if got tide hunter and another str hero ah..enough to tank roshan liao.naha.im looking ta teh frogs at my fish tank now.they fucking cute la.they play dead la.all resting on the pipes la.so the fish wont get to them.funny na.no wonder the the fish finish the food so quicky la.lol. ok la tired liao.

2007-02-24T03:12:00.000+08:00

Bad Day Apropriation account for the year ended 23 feb 2007

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Broke foster beer glass X2

scolded by customer for sending the steak early

scolded by customer for my friend's mistake

Ankle injuries X10

Busy day

lots of cups to be washed

Delayed order

Drunk

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Balance brought down Damn bad day huh?.

tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired tired

2007-02-22T22:02:00.000+08:00

today went out watch just follow law.must watch must catch man!.actually wanna watch norbit de.she watched liao.sian na.but just follow law turn out to be quite funny.im catching norbit some other day ba.wah so tired.walk like hell la.min hui suay man.full of bad luck lo.go eat de places all closed.ramen la steak la.everything ban zhou liao. XD ok back to just follow law.you get to see fang wong scold na beh.. XD. then got muthu. wahahaha.funny na.i think next i wanna watch protege.i got the disc.but half can see,another half got covered up.argh!.

now a days everyone troubling me with their love life.wahaha.min hui say i should get a car then get a girl. XD say i always get myself lost in the city.i rather cycle.well. wanna love just love.dont feel guilty feel bad la.to those chasing others.find the right timing.be yourself.thats important.if you wanna give up give up totally.be creative!. and for jackass girls whose just out to hurt.Thanks.

2007-02-21T02:09:00.000+08:00

As usual.dead tired.two servers doing what 6 people are comfortable handling it.wtf.i wasn't scolded by and customer thought.[you should infer that :p] but one table was so embrassing la.they couldn't get their sub 10 discount.then syed.[chef] came out crying for it.he keep on bitching la.like 2 times come out the bill also wrong.his friends was like nvm la.sub 10.$2 difference. XD today so many mistakes.but im not even countable for any of them. [infer that too.] sore throat's really bad today.worst.my breath was like....so end up goobling mentons after mentos.i dont know man.boss seem much kinder this days.he was laughing when yesterday i made a mistake and he didn't like what the fuck you doing!. XD .guess what.he gave me a ride home.today was all hell.customer was like devils or something.maybe they dont know how hard is it for 2 guys to be running the show.there's steak.there's kitchen food.there's drink counter.there's order taking.there's utensils setting.then come another who goes can i have another beer.next one wants his bills.another one's rushing the food. XD .my mind was like so fucking crazy till i dont even have time to think of her.so worked till closing.which means extra pay!.so tired. :( wrote something on my book today.still figuring what it means.shit im really growing older. :(

2007-02-19T13:17:00.000+08:00

i CANT hear on my right ear!.argh!.its rings when i woke up and gone.it doesn't hurt.Then spend half my day in the toilet.watched world trade centre and taildont know what.about racer.and sure.it sucks.world trade centre.phew lucky i didn't waste 9 bucks.Im watching abttle of wits next.so many dvds calling out to me.O ya.i should be semi deaf.going for another movie few days later.woo hoo huh?.now im enjoying life.HAHA.im also trying to play around with my mum's newly bought bamboo sticks.XD maybe cut it and make a pair of nunchucks.. :X

2007-02-16T00:57:00.000+08:00

im so tired today.couldn't sleep last night.so end up napping at 5.waking up at 11.Mum dragged me up.i couldn't have done it without her..Hee hee.then i march down to my bus stop.I was supposed to be late.and i have to WAIT for my friend.Again.lol.so i end up sleeping at the lan shop.and the auntie was real annoying la.i was drooling i think.XD still had a little more time and more people came to play dota.so i start watching them.got thrashed like two times.wth.actually three.but the third one didn't count.it felt like paying money to get myself killed.wth.so went back home.the charges for the game was 7.70.wth again.went back home.didn't care for a bath.was really dead tired.slept till 6.XD work was supposed to be at 6.XD. anyway.they dont care.ha.and i wont be going down to work on sat.hope i wont get sacked.valentines dont let me off.cny also dont let me off.bully lo.time i fight back.but i know.im bound to lose.

2007-02-15T00:58:00.000+08:00

Funny thing is.Im not her boyfriend! XD i feel stupid la.nothing to say la..like history repeating itself.anyway.eyes just keep on twitching.just forever la.cannot stop lo.worse.on saturday got work.im not going to turn up man.freaking tired.tml playing dota..woots!.and gym!.woots.hope tml..win win win man.i dont like losing lo..must be farmer!.XD. good items = not noob.ok i sound noob.XD now pondering over whether to choose to sign on navy lei. 5 yrs bond.sian lo.haiz.need help na.. HELp HELP!.lol

2007-02-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

Now that i want.i couldn't.[The flame which was flicking,was never blown out.unless you wanted it to.]

Back to my results.i did a 21.which was actually 20 after cca cut off.its was devastating man.Also people get an A2.with or without a leadership post.fuck it.for 5 yrs.what crap is this.argh.i actually wasted my 5 yrs for nothing.

2007-02-07T21:25:00.000+08:00

WANT TO PLAY BASKETBALL!.

2007-01-31T04:03:00.000+08:00

My heart beats once again.the wait is almost over.what if my end is bad.or perharps close this chapter and opening another one again.what would i do.what should i do.Im just merely waiting.like the sun rises.or the moon blooms.just waiting.waiting for nothing.feels like that.and achieving nothing at the end of the day.
this and that.pushing me back.away from reality.making me realise my cream of crop has turned sour.and never returning back.im terrifield.Handful of hectic.brought up by my future that has flocked by.reaping what you sow.Today's just scary.

2007-01-29T00:01:00.000+08:00

Worked 3 days as cashier.today's the fourth.bloody hell..its so tough..the amount of stress..the tremendous weight of work.and worse of all.orders from the work crew.thou im new to cashier.but.i shouldn't make mistakes.Never.this my aim.everything must be perfect.im going serious now.No shit me.ha.perfect everything.woots.when there's no perfection.there is no meaning in the things you do.

2007-01-27T02:40:00.000+08:00

jing tian bu blog.hen bored.mei dong xi blog.shi ai li si jiao wo blog de.yawn.

2007-01-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

Nahaha..haha.i just cant stop laughing.

2007-01-13T01:32:00.000+08:00

demands are real killers.its always good to have the never mind attitude.but how do you get job done like that.contradicting.finally.i understood what the movie matrix is trying to say.ha.one more thing off my mind. :P. wonder o lvl would be like how lei.im ready.but not prepared to recieve bad news.truths are always heart-breaking.

2007-01-04T14:54:00.000+08:00

Does cough syrup makes you sleepy.stupid sore down my throat just wont go away.i just keep on drinking.soothe my throat.quench the sore.then i feel real sleepy at work.and really awake in the midnights.life totally sux.lol.and my face is peeling.thanks to the meaningless basketball meeting my friend called me.dead tired.yesterday's payday.got a fat paycheck.513.woo hoo.i know i shouldn't put this up.but o fuck it.ha.shut up and listen.lol.peace out.

2006-12-29T01:57:00.000+08:00

Im not sure why im thining so much lately.im thinking of karma.anything which happened for the past years.ideas.theories.practically everything gushing out.but anyway.my temper had being rising recently.so if i were to offend anyone or fa pi qi,its because im really tired and stressed.just let me be.dont need to care.ha.

2006-12-27T03:41:00.000+08:00

there's just too much to say.too little time.too little energy.and im almost out of it.work just drains it.the same questions tearing into my very own skin.searching for its very own answers.this questions lives in me.sometime s it feeds me the fuel to go on.others becomes a parasite.feeding on me.this chapter is gone.another chapter must come.this is life.is this the very fact i lived?.problems solving become a daily..rountine.perharps because i am solving bits of it to my future.or because my life..had already ended.love have being searching me.but im lost.lost in the past.fear.discontent.stuck.help.i fear making the same mistakes.i started to hide myself.to not talk.this must change.unleashing my better side was a bad idea.everyone must have both good and bad working at the same time.its called balance.life was never fair.every choices affects the other.there's no right or wrong.but boils down to what you actually wants.tonight i made a choice.to accept my past.i dared myself to tackle my insensitive self.a daring speech.but i see something blooming from it.but like everything else.what bloomed must fade off.its just a matter of how well it blooms or how long it blooms.i love your past.dont change.this is what i asked our you.its your choice.but my destiny.a price i gladly pay.foolish.but because my heart ached too damn much.unbearable.

2006-12-23T02:57:00.000+08:00

today was really hell and chaotic man.went my friend's house.sleepover.the sofa was cosier than my bed.lol.but it was rather back breaking.neck breaking.handphone alarm was like a baby in a cradle.i was playing the role of a dad.every30 mins snooze once..was so tired..i didn't even have the energy to move.next day.plan didn't worked as well.was hoping to wake up at 11.00am.ended up working with a remaining time of an hour..[cos work starts at 12.30 :p]end up going to work in my "pyjamas" lol.smell ok lei.so worked lo.attached to kitchen a while..then server.today's event got every crew working on their toes.i only notice people pushing their jobs to me.i obey some.rejected some.maybe because im tired..plus stressed..i've become much more grumpy..i just dont know why..its happens..had a break..so everyone was gathering round the table..sometimes i just dont understand english..why do you gather round a square table.not that im stupid.but it makes no sense.like where im working makes sense.of cos.i may look dumb,childish,ugly,nerdy.you dont have to put me down in front of my friends.i just dont like it.dont offend me when i have little respect for you.it means i would kill you.ended up working till 2 am..wth right?

i dont know why.my workplace has got this girl.first day she came till now i didn't talk to her much.i got this kind of feeling that..she behaves like the girl whom i chased b4 la.im afraid if i get close and well.i would fall.and make the same mistake twice.i can't afford it.its already burning as i talk about it.i tell myself i dont need it.it keeps me living on.breathing.im trying to isolate myself from friends.maybe some i dont even know if im "needed'.some i ignore..some i just del away.yawn..think thats for today..12 hoyrs of work really kills..

2006-12-20T22:54:00.000+08:00

His shoulders has shouldered so much.Colar bones won't b.he dosen't cares if it crumbles.All he need is kim back.quit his raps.throw in the towel.and gives his mind a rest.clean out his closet.and say goodbye to hollywood.make re-up your last album.nobody would be sad.cause its wouldn't be long.till your name fades off.word in your songs i can relate.idolise those metaphors everytime you blah.seek out the good and learn to be bad.you're right.music cannot load a gun and shoot up a school.cause saddam's captured and getting sued.cause halie needs a dad.not your rap.you're not old.i know you're the rabbit.but can't you see.this race's almost over.now here's a piece of mine.i hope you get your peace of mind.i know i sometimes i can't rhyme.can't find words to rhyme,the way i feel,at this time.i know its time i sing myself a lulably.i know this won't reach you.this isn't bout' shots or chances.shizzy.sit back and enjoy your choices.im out.peace out.[shit]

Note: "hate to hear hate in his songs.time to change subject!or just step down.Gahahahaa."

2006-12-19T01:49:00.000+08:00

till dawn im awake.only few hours for me to still.yesterday's sleep awas a nightmare.
work started with a sigh.always the usual procedures.nothing interesting.rained like there's no tomorrow.perharps that how i should live my life.business was bad.so boss decided to bring me and one of my friend up to the store to clear their 9 years old junk.its felt like a antique musuem.found a box of knife and fork.really antique and old.i liked the knife though.but my manager got it first.its wasn't long that i realised there wasn't any roaches or rats in there.pretty amazing i guess.fossilized lizards were everywhere though.lots of Cds players which are still playerable.guess what..found a huge collection of LDs!.thats heaven for me.but boss still wants it.so..anyway.found unused condom in there.ha.No wonder they like jamming on the second floor.which kind of jamming.ahem.not going to eleborate.made it in time.11.15 go home.back breaking man.online till 2 pm.then my friend sms about n lvl.which made me think of o lvl.5 then sleep.after a cup of hot milk.

today was pretty wicked and ugly.wasn't in the best mood.real tired.brushing my teeth was like painting.rather than the usual painting.drew some cartoon for my brother before i went to work.i tell you.my brother's in love.mood swing day in and out.sick of him man.he got himself a blog.which explains why im still up.workplace keep on asking about my girl.can't they see its just a rhinestone.fuck it.don't need it.chuck it somewhere.and smile back.they're like impatient grandparents waiting for a grandson.and it comes in a package.nagging.of cos i've got no time for my girl when im working.of course..giving me weird looks the whole time.was in the kitchen today.hoping to fill up the job space for my friend.off day for him tomorrow.so thinking of learning something.to be prepared for tomorrow.kitchen crew fuck me up saying i've got nothing better to do.i told you this place dont have brains.then i walked off with the whatever attitude.hoo ha cafe was like under-sige by a series of tyhoon.rain keep on coming and going.well.almost 10.30.so decide to rest.so got my pay.$300.like so damn happy.but.don't know hwy im happy.suddenly felt no use for the money.like nothing to buy.ha.if you were to ask me for my pay.i would give it to you.wahaha.sometimes this way of thinking makes me feel like my dad.ha.one more good news..i know how to make iced latte.fuck starbucks and coffee beans.its worth like a few bucks.can come my house i can make!.wahahah. o ya.sorry for the fucks i used.its actually because of the working enviroment.americans taught me how its used.fucking good = to very good.so they go fucking good service.ha.fucking americans.(joke)

2006-12-08T01:16:00.000+08:00

zao dao gong lo.woots!.very tough lei.alot stuff need remember.alot things to do.use alot of brains.if now i can only use 3 percent of my brain,then while working 2.9 percent is in use.too much information.5 day at work now and a new comer sort of stick with me while doing setting.he dont ask questions dont try out everything.just bloody hell stuck at a corner and smoke crack.and i have to work my arse off to cover his's and his 6 bucks.this is what i call bitch.its not like work is tough or something.no one cover you when you're covering others.just because im new i've to speak nicely be nice to boss.NO! not my style.ha!.i've got brains.doing this to get me some cash and some more experince.of course without experince.brains is nothing.i call myself trying to be smart.mum dad happy about me going out to work.people there say im slow and confused.because i pause and think and plan?.but let me put it in a not nice way to say.study their skills.and be evil.

lyrics coming in and out.putting it together into a song is like piecing a jigsaw puzzle without using hands.perharps humming works.lol.

2006-11-25T23:24:00.000+08:00

Boring day man.is my holiday going to be like this?.shit.gotta find something to learn.just got scammed yesterday.like arghhh!.man.couldn't sleep whole night. 4am slept.8 woke up.still energentic.lol.thats not me man.hmm..just guess being nice and good means getting bullied and pushed around.and of course getting scammed.put it this way.knowledge is power,power corrupts,study hard,be evil.

2006-11-24T22:24:00.000+08:00

Added on

after reading a few blogs.realised the most easier way to gain trust is through consolation and confidation(not sure i spelled it correctly)and the easier way to hurt someone is also using the same method.its a fine line between these two.but for me.its best to not touch this two things and live in my own world.perharps is my mindset.or maybe i have already dwindled into the darker side of man.i just hope i dont have to touch this two stuff again.hoping is so unpromising.

2006-11-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

its real stupid when someone ask you for lots of money when you're like doing stuff in your own world.so i decided "teach" them how to make "easy" money.and of course any kind of business involes risks.any.so i told them to buy more insurance.it's simply "easy" money.so if you're going to sell your limbs and left leg to me how much are you going to ask?.

Prom night's coming.everyone's so busy looking for their stuff.bought a blazer and the price equals to a bomb.not to mention a pants which could have costed me $39.bought it at 59.pisses me.i need a tie.im like a gangster without one.perharps because of the causal looking blazer.im not sure what i need and im running out of cash.
The most irony thing about prom is,during o lvl friends just look forward to it teachers just wishes they were there.but now.everyone simply wants it to end quickly.Prom somehow adds up stress to us.not sure why.few days back just walking miles after miles looking for stuff.just so damn tired.period.

Realised life real sucks today.real bloody short.morning wake up brush teeth.rush out of house for soccer game.at 1024.scored the first goal.at 1203.went to jp and have lunch.discussed about some personal stuff.1256.walked up to the mrt station.took 30 at the station.reached west coast at about 1323.took another bus to intercahnge.time was 1340.took another at 1356.reached home slept.time : unknown.woke up played com till now.time:2201.noticed i talked about time.real cautious about time when you have a watch.

2006-11-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

Yay Yay Yay..finally exams over.So damn great.now can do what i want lo!.work get money play!.lol.today had fun at friend's house.after exams when to play dota.tried new heros.kana called noob by people.hee.but who cares!.fun lei!.haha.not bad la today.got ups and downs lo.then went to gym.lol. so bloody skinny.then went swimming.went..sauna.and i think i burnt my nose.damn great la exams over.just so excited.just hope i can sleep lol.bloody tired now.ate kolo noodles.like no taste lei.cost a bomb man.then little bit little bit de.but..lots of other nice food waiting for me.ha.who cares.lol.

2006-11-18T13:28:00.000+08:00

story of the day.

there was this man named joe.one day he fell into a deep dark hole.hopelessly he shouted for help.A judge came by and saw what happened.Joe asked."hey,could you give me a hand?".the judge wrote a note of concern and threw it in and left. Then a priest came pass.Joe shouted the same verse.The priest wrote a prayer and threw it in and left .Next is his friend.joe shouted "hey pal, im stucked,could you get me out?.his friend jumped in without thinking.joe smacked his forehead. "why did you jumped in you idiot.now're both in the hole!" guess what his friend told him.

2006-11-16T15:26:00.000+08:00

Exams almost over!!.woo hoo!.2 more papers.O level almost over!.then graduation!.play all day long man!.ha.do what i wanna do.go where i wanna go.o ya hiking.i forgot.ha just plenty of ideas in my mind.waiting.for me to play it out.

today came upon a website about tarot cards.well i didn't believe so much in this.told me this.[The Ace of Wands card reversed suggests that initial attraction and passion may be nothing more than an aimless tease or escape. It's no wonder it seems attractive at first, but the staying power may not be there, no matter how much you try to make it so. While a lack of spontaneity or innovation could make your love life seem obligatory rather than liberating and exciting, that's no reason to jump at a tiny spark that may not have the potential to become a real fire. Enjoy the feeling for what it is without trying to elicit promises that may fall through or be disappointing. ]
lame sia!.haha. backing away is always the best idea de la.so general.

2006-11-13T12:17:00.000+08:00

jay chou's new album[still fantasy] quite nice.i like the song listen to mum and tui huo. :p his mtv also damn good[qian li zhi wai].got some kind of.erm.taste.style.story.must buy must see.i think im addicted to the songs liao.lol. XD

about life.hmm.hell ah!.haha.study study study.like just keep on squezzing knowledge in.terrible feeling.ha feel like scaring 4 Na. XD 3 more paper to go.2 more days to do it.just afraid results are bad.lol.i even got a back up plan. wth. thats worry.and thats the worst thing to give me.lol.

lyrics to still fantasy : http://www.karazen.com/viewartist.php?name=Jay+Chou
watch this the girl damn cute : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6vduDJ6nMA&mode=related&search=

2006-11-02T22:23:00.000+08:00

A feeling of being fine tune grabs you today.In fact, pull that violin out from under the bed and see what you remember - you'll be surprised at how quickly your fingers will remember what to do.

well perharps its words of encouragement .its the last bit of the race.the end is near.but i found time isn't enough.but all i know is.i would never be prepared.

2006-10-31T00:51:00.000+08:00

Problem of the day.

if you got a white,black,grey,and brown horsey.which one would you choose?.its made of wood.children call it toys. :p and i want them all but i can't. :'(

2006-10-29T09:44:00.000+08:00

Do you even know how hard.it is.

to see all the efforts go down the drain.

pushed your problems away.its being my forte.

now this fucker took you away.

you told me i must foreit the game.

it starts me up.burns me fuel.

and now the mood all changed.

what i put in you took away.ran away.

the more i push the more im holding away.

you put in obstacles.block me.stab me.

burn me.hurt me.and now most importantly.

i hoped now i see.you ran away.well baby thats ok.

im just somebody who missed you.back in 16.

your actions put words in my mouth.

and now im down here fucking my blog up.

now im left with nothing.so empty.

now i picture myself being the m.c.

holding the mic.forgeting what your friends did.

these pain has always being your delivery.

i loved you.and that i would say it proudly.

2006-10-26T17:10:00.000+08:00

slowly,the pack crept upon me.
vines on the tree enslared me.
the moonlight burns my skin.
as these wolves tears.struggling.
I tired to break free.howling.
the wolves delivered thier mockey.
At that moment.
on four paws.i can never pretend.
what vain efforts i put up.
from there they brought it down.
they say what goes up.has gotta be brought down.
forgetful.i moved on.
salvaging my past my present and my tale.
this gift.this note.
is my last sanity.

2006-10-25T14:14:00.000+08:00

i had dreamt of this in my dreams.

she treads softly in my dreams.

treads viciously.foolishly.

while i held her hand.

slipping away.falling.

she left me there.

in her tale.

wandering.

2006-10-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

its perharps the very last time i'll be wearing this uniform.and going to school.eating with friends in the canteen.i wont miss the food. :p five years.say long also can't say short also cannot.a little lost im feeling.suddenly a change in enviroment.no more school.5 years.what i have being through in sec1,its still deeply imprint in my mind.the fun.the joy.the bond.i missed it.though it isn't much.while 'much' cannot be measured.well.i did something which i did with my instints.i plead for help for my friends.i don't gain.and i did it.freewill.like i say.i couldn't bear the sight of my friends failing.i backed them up.one more shot i found for them.one more chance.one more pathway to victory.salvage what i can and able to.but it still boils down to one qn.is it too late?.would we seize it.or let it slip?.

2006-10-22T21:46:00.000+08:00

2 more weeks.just 14 days more.bloody scary.and im here blogging.lol.well i worry for some.who didn't even cared.i pull two friends out of the endless pit.but they're falling back in again.2 more weeks.the diffence is here.its the last burst.last chance.every moment is a chance to turn it around.never be late.never.
well talking about stuff personal.my relationship with my bro just took a turn.worse.people don't understand why im bad to him.but talked to my friend today about it.perharps its part of a guy's life.like getting real moody.i never liked this shit anyway.well.i asked about the confusion i have lately.my friend said to be safe its better to keep mum shut and keep the overwhelming affection inside.but i can't pretend like a criminal stealing seconds after seconds.he say its bad if i mess her world up and also mess this friendship up.but i guess being friends is alot better.at least expectation is low. :p

2006-10-19T21:56:00.000+08:00

Finally,O level started.it was pretty successful.cause the answers were kind of majority thing.you get 0.04.i get 0.04.the answer is right.ha.kind of good feeling about it.ha.tracing back.last night was terrible.i couldn't sleep.partly because of the overwhelming stress and excitment over tonight exam.and partly of a friend.simply thinking of that friend whole night.it wasn't wrong.neither was it right.its like 20 percent stress.80 percent that friend.or maybe 80 percent friend.20 percent stress.i don't know.sometimes people do what they shouldn't do.its the bloody mind set. some said to me.its your mental capacity.well.ans back.its your nutty phylosophy.its that nutty feeling pushing you forward.i keep it quiet.i keep it safe.trouble brewing.or is it bitter sweet coffee again.perharps im on the right track but on the wrong train.crush for a friend is it wrong?.

2006-09-06T23:16:00.000+08:00

critics and annoying words comes from all everyday.and today.its hell for me at tuition.never had i experince this fear of being scolded.every word he uttered gives me every reason to stay deaf.i had no choice but to be tolerent to this.in exchange for knowlege.arrived at pungol again.still.the scenery of peace and silence still hangs in the sky.wonder how its like when its dark. :p. after the intense tuition.i went to bugis with james and dixie.stuff for prom is really costly.when to M.O.S.burgers up.ha.lame.then walked a while.then home.took bus with dixie.then start talking about how we're coping with our past relationships.saw this gal which was really pleasant looking.not sure about dixie.ha.not to mention what dirty dixie did.keke.my idea actually.ha.then he got off at queensway.its me against the glances she made.hot.i dare not return.her stupid mum.ha.it was a real interesting ride.woo hoo.ha.little did i know she lived near my house.wahahaha.then remembered that i sat with her at the coffee shop before.ha.perharps its fate.ah dixie?!.haha ok no more wild assumptions.is this chances?. :P

[she's like raindrops]

2006-09-05T23:51:00.000+08:00

started studying maths at 9 am in the morning.was late actually.because of the thunderstorm yesterday night.the thunder was rather annoying.waking up every 15 mins.then woke up at 6 am.did some push-ups.trying to stay awake.after brushing my teeth.end up the the sofa.sleeping.thats how i end ed up late.did a few paper today.memorising it as i went through those tedious hours.had little endurance after lunch.laid down and slept.woke up at around 3.not sure of the time.friend was annoying me.asking me to stop and go home.i don't think im able to call him down anymore.just too lazy and tired.got back my bands from my friend.haha.its not luck i wanna give.its confidence.hard to find someone who thinks alike.ha.well.thats all. :p

[its tough to just look through the eyes of one who you loved,and knowing that redemption is almost impossible.and as those eyes swallows you.your pride sinks like you're not wanted.at that time.you know.i have loved.like the sun showering light to the moon.but only to find it reflected.]
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2006-09-03T00:04:00.000+08:00

ok.how to start.ha.i have lots of things to blog about.thanks to [The Incredible Blogger] actually.the astronaut guy.lol.ok.i won't blog about him.(you're saved).lol.time to build up my stamina.time to start studying.time to work to the extreme.i have plans.real big time plans.ok..im tired.lol.pool sux.whole day stuck with the piano pieces.just to figure them out on my keyboard.argh.peace out.

[the idiotic and her]

2006-08-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

i was right!.physics was easy. :p anwers were given to us.just hope i pass it with credit.

i got this friend.just plain lazy to study.i don't know how to get him to do his studying for 'O's.i can't say his smart.and can't say his stupid.idiot.how should i put it.his just confident.without preparations.thats dumb.no one understands what im going through.seeing him weeping away when his results are done.as a friend it pains.i've being saying things that discourge him to bring his rage out.won't work.i've being to the point when im so tired but still ask him out to study.and got rejected.now.im using his dreams.girl of his dream actually.get him to jC.get him to work.his actually on the right track but on the wrong train.but i got another plan.like let him read my blog.just touch his heart with this.his a man with feelings.i don't know why im so cappable of getting problems out of people.ha.you don't wanna know what he told me.mrs wang told me to help him by teaching and revise by teaching.am i up to it?.and with the politics and cold wars in class.im so tired.i don't know why i worry for others so much.perharps because i care?.or because im just kapo?.people who i knew were acting so different.i don't know who to put my trust in lately.anyone understands this please shout back.
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[and im losing hope][give me one reason not to]

2006-08-29T22:04:00.000+08:00

i am going to say something daring today!.holy hell physics is easy!.haha.i didn't study and it was managerable!. woo hoo!.so funny jin sanshun!.ok nothing to say.god i need a beer.

2006-08-18T23:22:00.000+08:00

No, I won't let you control my fate.While I'm holdin' the weight of the world.On my conscience(No)I won't just sit here and wait.While you weigh your options.You're makin' a fool of me(No)You didn't dare try to say that you don't care.And solemnly swear.Not to follow me there(No)It ain't like me to beg on my knees.Oh, please, oh, baby, please.That's not how I'm doin' things(No)No, I'm not upset.No, I'm not angryI know love is love, love but sometimes it pains me(No)With or without youI'll always be with you.You'll never forget me, I'm keepin' you with me(No)I won't let you take me.To the end of my rope.While you burnin' and torture my soul(No)No, I'm not your puppet.And no, no, no.I won't let you go

[Wth>you ft. Aceyalone][linkin park reanimation]

yesterday was kind of great.i had my oral.for the first time i wasn't afraid.for the first time i stayed calm when im not.the conversation sucks.i think i did ok in the picture.hope he examiners liked me.XD.well for all cancerian out there your lucky colour is orange.rmb orange!.

[when i come on and talk i dont have much to say.fuck it.]
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2006-08-16T22:56:00.000+08:00

well today's focus was really bad.of all the two classes.afew bunch came.and when they heard the teachers ain't coming and are not strict.they ran.its not that im emo or what.like.they're my friends.and one more week to prelims.one more day to oral.and one more chance before we prove ourself to those stingy marker of cambridge :X.ha joking.lolbut having a pathetic hardworking few of us isn't so bad.at least its much productive.and much quieter.i refreshed my memory on transformation.ha.and did oral practice.i wasn't so bad in oral after all.ha.i notice a change in my standard after im much more serious in the work im doing.ha.well its late and sleeps a min's away.

equation of the day. y=mx+c :d
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2006-08-15T22:26:00.000+08:00

The disadvantage of life is that you turn back time.but the advantage is that you don't have to.

tonight's focus wasn't even productive.everyone was playing.chatting.oh well.at least i did a seq and two qn of sbq.then having hell lot of pain round my chest.kind of picking up pace.well hope its not too late.hope i speed up.hope that hope haven abandon me.someone said my timing isn't good.ha.maybe its just like to pick my timing.lol.flunked my oral test today.crap.im watching the cop show on channel U.god its becoming more interesting man.lol.just learning to live my life like before.forget perfect.im trying not to be worthless.but like i say.nothing really feels like its worth it.

when it all goes down who will be there,but at the worst you'll see nobody cares.
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2006-08-10T15:12:00.000+08:00

possibility of a time machine

there is no need to argue.time travel is possible.the philosophy of time travel is indeed confusing.put it this way.this theory equates the possibility of time travel with the existence of closed time like curves(CtCs).or worldlines.but studies of this ctCs are crude.this indicates a possibility of time travel.nothing is for certain.this proves an age for 2nd chances and in fact flawless project works and accurate life saving expeditions.

another theory is that by manipulating concentration of matter energy so as to produce CtCs here none would have existed.this does not violate the laws of physics.at least its not like some movies where sitting in a telephone booth and pulling a lever enables one to pass through time.

think of time as a cylinder.divide it into three section.top part is the future and the bottom the past.the present which should be is in the centre of it.now.the cylinder is made in a way such that the top spins slower than the centre or the bottom.and the bottom rotates faster than the top but not the centre.the centre rotates fast.time travel would be allowing either the future or the past to go slower or faster provided the present pauses.thus we breaks the CtCs into the past or future.

the building of an actual time machine would take years of studies.perharps CtCs are deadly?.its almost like building a rocket to go to space.the world of time is unknown to us.and time is the limited thing we need.
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[life is short?huh?its the longest thing i've ever done!]

2006-08-02T21:38:00.000+08:00

sometimes speaking out your problem won't work.and not all problems could be told to everyone.even if its told.that person may not even understand it.so how to get rid of these problems?.ha.im already trying so hard to hide every damn problem every damn feeling.but perharps its coming back and overloading my mind with it.perharps i should read the book art of war.ha.so sleepy now.lol.
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[sigh]

2006-07-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

im sick.shit.damn the weather.damn the cold.argh.crap.

why feeling again sia.argh.help me man.heal this heart sick too.ok im like so controling.lol.messy man!.im like tossed high up and drop back down.the really bad naive feelings back.im dead.lol.
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[thirst for nothing and you]

2006-07-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

lalala.life's like this.haha.
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[hoping for hope]

2006-07-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

everyone makes their own mistakes.everyone has their flaws.some people seem to have forgotten themselves.why expect?.whats life.why all this happens?.why so many why?.is it because i don't go to church?.is it because im always short of 5 buck at the donation cans?.wtf.Argh.i thought self-control is the key and only way to unlock myself from this.i was wrong.im always wrong.always has a lousy sense of humor.always getting lousy timings.sigh is the word.
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[life is sigh]

2006-07-24T18:24:00.000+08:00

f*&k.i flunked my poa.argh.im so confused man.though almost whole class didn't do well.im expecting better grades than 45 haf.school's a b%$c*.life's like fu^8ed up.everything's fading away.AHH!.my term three's screwed.prelim's time table's out.sooner the better.should start stressing myself.ha.time to wake that brain of mine.lol.time to set everything right.

whole day's poa.seems lifeless to me man.not to mention d&t and art having boot camp.hee hee.the mood for having fun should go.and perharps that lousy sense of humor.ha.perharps.seriously.this is like the very last dance which im saving for life.i mean if my results for o lvl is like the ones i get for poa.(mrs wang says our school paper's one grade higher which means harder than o lvl which i do not believe and which explain this depression).im gonna waste this years down the drain.won't let the curtains close behind me like this.not this time.
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[blue skies fading to grey.carrying on no matter what.]

2006-07-22T22:52:00.000+08:00

today's just bored.freaking bored.whole day was just trying my best to find fun.ha.im actually trying to study.but always end up lying on my bed.then fall asleep.just ate supper.guess i won't be hungry for the rest of the night.time flocks by so slowly today.woke up with an aching back.my thighs are all sore.ah feels like sleeping.just feel like closing my eyes and not waking up.lol.ya.its not normal to think like that.ha.nothing to blog.BORED!.
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[feel like loving you today.]

2006-07-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

stupid day.late for poa exam.ran like a mile here.lol.whole body was trembling when i reached the hall.now having a headache.stupid feeling.ARGH!.get it off me!.ha.watched nachos libre yesterday.lol.pretty funny.but think its a waste of money.lol.waiting for lake house.ha!.like 7 more days.but exams are coming and i don't even panic.what should i do to panic?.lol.should be on gear 5 and vroom!.lol.

im not sure if im really happy or just pretending.lol!.just happy talking to some and others just bore me.im not sure if this occurs to anyone out there but im afraid of being called anoying.also hate people who are hypocrites.lol.anyway got back my phone and its a lot more worse.lol.its like the warranty was just a fluke.like its a taking back your phone for a few days.make it worse.and back to you again.im like so disappointed man.lol.we poor people depends alot on this shit.lol.i mean if you don't even mean to help don't pretend you are!.ha.

why is it when i look at you i can't stop it.why is love such an uphill struggle.what im i fighting for.i don't see the point of it.there's no goal.i don't dare to ask.not because im scared or what.because i've got to much why in my mind.its being a long timewhen i last thought about it.can i overcome it?do i want to?lol.i don't know.
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[would i meet you again?.]

2006-07-17T23:31:00.000+08:00

today nothing to blog.same old life stuff.ha.ok blog about the past ha.erm.gonna be real childish and bear with it..ha thought i m childish.ha wana push all my problems and studies aside for awhile.

My Best Friend

i've had this friend for like.erm.5years now.his name is james.well.his the first person i knew at sec 1.guess where we knew?.in the hall!.ha.he started talking and hi.lol.you had better see my sec 1 basketball selection.lol.im so.erm.60s!.ha.like long socks.stupid hairdo.like now.lol.ok back to it.erm.then started talking about basketball.and started hanging out together.we like went to his primary school and play ball.hang out before and after school.sole purpose.basketball.o.great.i should be childish.erm.he actually wanted to join ncc de.lucky got me his influnced.ha.

we were like very good friend.i don't know why.but very good friend.we rarely quarrel.we very funny one.but i don't know whether we lame a not.really!.no bluff you.we really wanna have fun only.make people laugh and stuff.so fun last time.i like last time.do you?ha then came basketball.joined quit joined quit.i don't know what he up to.

sec2 was like woah!.itell you.very very fun!.like all the time no need study.just play.still remember we always spoil the fan and stuff.like so pro can?.ha.sec 2 also bullying people liao.nice.hee.

sec3 like kind of broke up.course like different class.so very not together alot.then i had problems with basketball.so.stressed.then end of year actually got selected de.but because of attendence.i couldn't.i cried like hell.lol.

sec4 he came back to basketball again.then played our first tourament together.cried our hearts out when we lost.i actually control liao.i putting my arms round dixie and james that time see them cry till so shiok then i join in lor.hee.really very very sad lor.piang can still remember the thoughts and sight of it.mr loh tell us don't cry in front of him ha.hee.he actually also want cry de lor. :p.hee hee.then sec 5 this year worked very hard for the tourament.our second and last tourament of our secondary basketball life.ha.james left again.for a while only la.hee.then i actually don't trust him like that.ha.opps.after that was the big game.his like so shinning man!.ha.so man!.till now we're still very good friends.hanged out together and study and stuff.

well.i wrote this today is to show my appreciation ba.its not alot of stuff la.just simple minor small things.5years de things tell me write in one blog entry where got enough.this perharps is my dedication ba.ha.also to tell others to do this too.show how much you appreciate each other.for this is like the last years for us all.in this school in this year.with this friends.who kicked ass with us.last time to study together.eat together in the canteen.its all last.its time to appreciate.im not perfect.but im always your feaking friend!.ha.so hungry now.crap.poa paper2 tomorrow.wish me luck.

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[everyone out there.of course i love you all ha.]

2006-07-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

bored to death ah!.today so damn early wake up go church.lol.its ok la.like concert like that.i was like half dead after the service.lol.i hugged the bag and sit down on the floor.nap the whole way.lol.i looked like i was on drugs.ha.well.went back home took a bath and took a short nap.forgot about the meeting with james!.sorry. :p then repaired my phone.lol.then went back to clementi to study.didn't actually.lol.james lor. :p .ahh nth to blog.ha.

no chance liao zhi yong!.no chance liao!.cannot love her liao!.forget her ba!.
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[without you.without dreams.]

2006-07-15T22:10:00.000+08:00

just came back from esplanade.went past this stage with lots of rock and shit.well.they sound real great.not sure whats the festival is called.i think its baybeat.lol.then went home.lol didn't get ice cream at marina square.crap.this morning studied for like an hour.then went to play dota.went down to the coffee shops at jurong east.the food are expensive man!.but they looked real good.crap.went to another coffee shop which was much cheaper.lol.the food there was indeed.terrible.i've to complain!.ha.

As a friend,i've failed.to feel is my mistake.
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[i've being trying to control.very very hard.im sorry.]

2006-07-11T19:17:00.000+08:00

i wasn't happy with yesterday.wasn't happy with today.wasn't happy with myself.if one day my entry could be short and simple.just one line.nothing but just happy words.its great.forget it.im going studying.bury myself in it.red light.take a stop.but i can't rest.don't the world feels tired and dizzy doing all that spining and don't get its paycheck.if it does stop.lets just stop at night and watch the stars and moon.ha.dream on!.

words left unsaid.shouldn't be this way.would it help if i got you?.i don't know.im tired already.
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[fool's love]

2006-07-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

Fell and worsen my knee.haiz.how go outside team.sian.today studied at JE mac.chemisty tomorrow.yawn.feel like sleeping.bored! ah!.nothing really to blog.just bored.
how to get close!.haha.
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[i don't even know her]

2006-07-09T21:28:00.000+08:00

so bored today.waking up was such a nightmare.ha.not much to say.erm.tomorrow's maths and humanities exam.i don't feel stress.just a intense urge to study.hee.well.slept the whole of the afternoon.i don't know why so tired.i missed the match yesterday!.i forgot about the alarm!.well perharps this explains why im so tired.my studying session was canceled.thanks to...i don't know what.feeling sick.knee cap from bad to worse.ha.maybe its telling me to just rest and study.listening to losing you.studying soon ha.
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[its the way you looked and smile]

2006-07-08T22:51:00.000+08:00

Lose lose lose.sigh.today played dota.used bone.never used before.they say good.ha.i bought wrong items!.aHh!.then went studying with vincente,james,dixie.ha.kind of fun hanging out.did maths.cleared part of my doubts.but not enough.ha.second round tomorrow.O ya.drank something that tasted abit better abit stronger than mocha.its erm.at mac cafe.the carmel/vanilla ice blended.i wanna drink hot mocha.hope it will last for the whole of the study session.ha.after that went orchard look for a shop that shine shoes.ha.feeling sleepy liao.argh!.later how watch world cup.ok.then like just walk round and round and round.lucky got them around.or it just feels real bored.well found the shop.but its closed.lol.then decided to travel all the way back to clementi for dinner.guess what.mr prata!.ha.ha something unknown to me.called.erm.kuay teow goreng.first bite was ok.but after a few mouthful.it tasted real boring.ha.then chat awhile.went home.later watching world cup.ha.stop now.
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[this is that]

2006-07-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

Watched a movie today.ETERNAL SUNSHINE.the shows really messed up.there's flash backs and.just weird.but i kind of like it.well.the movie's about a love that turned out bad.and people can forget about their past.their memory.it could be erased.but earlier passion caused the main actor to rediscover that love.he attempts to stop the proceduces in his dreams.it's clear that whats done can't be undone.ha.nothing to blogged about.something spoilt my day.which i don't wanna talk about.
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[you can erase someone from your mind][getting them out of your heart is another story]

2006-07-06T19:25:00.000+08:00

06.07.2006

i just found out that my date were wrong.lol.still living in the past.ha.actualy today got nothing to blog about.but i found out something that was shocking for me.

i thought i was the one faking the smiles.little did i know i was treated as an idiotic person.little did i know.ever care about someone when all you get back are this under-appreciated sentences.all i can do is wait.wait for karma to deal with it.i believe in it.course the only person i did trust is nothing but a hypocrite.it breaks everything in me.it pains me.should i pay it back 2 times more to her.or just let it rest.its just anger in me.my head hurts.what the meaning of this tears anyway.
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[i cried]

2006-07-05T20:42:00.000+08:00

05.06.2006

today consists of many free lessons.which im happy and im not.ha.its so boring!.humanities came along.lots more work.thinking thinking and more thinking.haiz.then i started to have this liking for buttons!.weird.ha.today's oral was in a mess.i think i stammer through the conversation.shit.after that played soccer.i scored!.woots!.serious a goal was like.AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH.the feeling was alot better than scoring in a basketball game.ha.then went home drenched in sweat and smell.ha.going studying at 9.00pm.ha.

i'll listen to you.i'll study.
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[if you say you love me.i'll believe you]

2006-07-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

4.06.2006

superman/continue:i got this doubt.anyone feel that the villians are stupid and.erm.dumb?.and i thought at the presence of krytonite would worsen superman.but he can carried one big chunk out of space.huh?.O one more.when superman dies.i was like:''huh?.isn't it superman returns?''.i felt like walking away.ha.i liked the theme song for superman.keke.very classic.

im sorry im so trying to make my problem yours.there's two part of me.one's holding on.another part letting go.im so demanding!.why?.i don't wanna lower my expectations.o well study first hee.the currenty mood to study isn't there.but i'll try.
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[its worth it.if its for something you care for.]

2006-07-03T22:47:00.000+08:00

3.06.2006

i watched superman today!.ha.its shocking nice.but i really don't know why.why superman always have one part of his hair gel up and curled.its nice though.ha.im just tired now.

this insanity is getting out of hand.i need to cage it and control it.i sort of figure something out today.thanks to you know who.i asked a qn to her.one that doesn't requires much thinking.i feel like i have a beast in me.just tearing its way out of me.im scared.like i said.i have two hands and im meddling with tons of problem.i need a break.an exit.a walk.a run.a swim.something to relax.

i gained 1 kg today woots!.ha
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[i missed you]

2006-07-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

2.06.2006

how time flies.few more days to 'o' lvl mt oral.isn't it scary.after hearing from my so called tution 'teacher'.ha.i was a bit more confident.i tend to stammer during oral.on the surface i look calm and ready.but just nervous and screaming inside.ha.

today just watched constantine.ha.''my name is john.john constantine.you asshole''.ha.its pretty cool i should say.i guess its rated behind ghost busters.perharps because there three cool busters.not one.ha.no logic.lol.tomorrow's going back to school.finding back the old days of me.ha.actually.of us. :p basketball is for life.

i feel that i did you wrong.this isn't the first time im doing this.but i've being learning.i've being cleaning up so well.i hope it won't be like in the movie.im afraid.to just even fall.
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[the late hours is for us my love]

2006-07-01T20:52:00.000+08:00

1.07.2006

Recently knee cap's giving me problems.fitness is now a past for me.everything comes crashing down.i've decide to start training up.going for intense swimming sesions.perharps.course gym would worsen my legs.running doesn't help.surfacing of old injuries made me feel vunerable.studies is another portion that i shouldn't give up on.ha.meaningless words unless i start to work hard.being under stress due to problems and stuff.can't concentrate.its hard to shoulder everything when im fed-up and tired.i feel like a pupeteer,whose got only 2 fingers to use.i can't control everything.though i can say that some's within my control.the show must go on.

i must stop giving course none would be returned.Am i selfish in this sense?.

work hard please,work hard!c'mon zhi yong!
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[forget the past,treasure the present][whose treating you well whose not][karma will deal with it]

2006-06-30T18:33:00.000+08:00

30.06.2006

So tired!.ha.i was like playing basketball for like 3 days in a row.counting today too.now im not sure if i want to join outside team.i really don't know.

Few days back was real rough for me.real rough.which i don't really wanna talk about it.don't know why i always qn the purpose of everything.and everything ha.

im now at the point where im starting to reveal all my problems and just upset over it.i can't find a reason why she still look so mesmerizing to me.so hypnotising.when today someone ask me"do i still like her?" i can't answer that.i shouldn't?.i doubt myself.

im in too deep now to swim against it.i know im flawed.
when can i just drop in a cold pool.to numb myself from this.
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[love happpily]

2006-06-26T21:17:00.000+08:00

26.06.2006

Crap.exams in two days time.im not prepared!.o lvl mt oral's on friday.shit.i really wasted my time man.need to challenge time.A race against it.for that what im left with.come to think about it.is this life?.is this what we're just fighting and living for?.Bitch.getting on with my essay after this.slept during english.Yawn.wanna sleep now.lol.maybe coffee might perk me up.not sure im using perk correctly.just lazy to think.life's just so boring......wanna die?.
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[death is only the begining]

2006-06-25T21:51:00.000+08:00

25.06.2006

Ah!!...tomorrow school starts at 9.shit.i haven finish tons of work!.ha.no world cup matches for me today.im going to hell and back.ha.homework is hell!.well.today went out to do my english homework.started at 8.finish at 6.guess what.finished only one piece!.guys can really talk!.lol.back home now on my comfortable chair and a cup of refreshing coffee.but..work again.life's a bitch!.ha.

i hope its not love.hope it won't go too far.i hope i feel sorry cos i feel guilty.love you but i don't..
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[had stomachache.OrgHHH...]

2006-06-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

24.06.2006

Ha.today's my birthday!.i think blogging's becoming a habit man!.lol.well today's really sleepy and today's event wasn't so nice.just a simple dinner at jack's and just tour around marina square.and i mean it.TOUR.ha.i got brownies.pants.and a new friend!(you should know ah!)ha.

Not really have anything for today.but for people out there.stay happy and positive.an hour before my birthday really ends.ha.
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[My battle of battles for all end of ends][crap english]

2006-06-23T21:53:00.000+08:00

23.06.2006

Ha.Tml's gonna be my birthday!.keke.just real glad its coming.going marina square to celebrate.asked a few of my best friends.ha.today's not so good though.but not so bad also.i started to study abit.like chemistry.maths.i started to find interest in a book called 'miracles'i should say its not bad!.ha.i was sleepy at about 6 pm.couldn't really find any mood to do anything.just sleep.

i woke and played soccer with my brother.wasn't that good though.he was very sarcastic.judging my 'stunts'.ha.then i took a hard hit on the ball.went into the bushes.gone.my brother was swearing all over the place.(course it was dark and the ball was..erm..black.)we took torches down.but just couldn't really find it.then he kicked on something hard.the ball just rolled out.its just near to a small bush.so near and so close.
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[walked this extra mile.why.i seek a chance][for i have nvr met you yet][someday]
what really thought me something was,sometimes things are real obivious to us.but like its not about chance.not about grabbing the chance.not about destiny.or anything else.its about whether you see it or not.whether it wants to voice out.whether you wanna do something about it.make things happen.now i was scared.really!.that i couldn't find it.

Chances should be created not wished or just waiting for it to happen.but whether it allows itself to be obivious.its another story.i find myself to be trapped.confused.mixed up.haywired.i have more to learn.im not matured enough.i will be.hee. :D

2006-06-22T22:57:00.000+08:00

22.06.2006

My mum told me.if something you're gonna say's not good.keep it to yourself.throw it somewhere else.this 'theory' is hard to uphold.i have tons and millions of stuff inside.waiting.for its hour of unleash.i do not agree today is a good day.i thought about alot of things today.whats my purpose of life now?.why am i here doing this blog.people who come by and read may think.'hey this guy's crazy,psychotic theory of his'.i don't know why my people of my character do not trust people easily.its beyond my understanding.i've heard stories of the earth being a beautiful place once.man made it complex.people die.why not me?.if so.when's my turn?.why is my life.no.our lifes filled with obstacles and mistakes and tests.why is there love.why is there feel?.i realised i've lost all hope.and my dreams have forsaken this man.this boy.i just....help..
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[i feel terrible!]

2006-06-21T20:51:00.000+08:00

21.06.2006

Seen what james and dixie wrote for their past entry.felt there's a urge for me tell my story.ha.(actually today nth to write).nah.just joking.where should i start.ok.basketball was tough.still rmb.but abit blured.On my first day we had a 10 rounds run followed by suicide run.tough!.then there was selection.there was one vs one matches.i was 'lucky' as my opponent was fat and i could easily out run him.after that i couldn't rmb what happened.after a few days we had training.james dixie tian xiang kenneth join in.Big family.But good things never seem to last.they quit.i felt lost.our friendship was on the line.it was had to choose.hard to balance it.threats we fired at me.i made my stand.A stand i must be sure.A stand which stands strong till now.

i had richie with me.lucky!.but lady luck crossed me out after that.i wasn't good with my shots.i wasn't.but my defence was at the peak of my 'career'.but offense was the key for defence doesn't win the game.it only helped to.sorrow was like rain.rained for a few days.i was called a waterboy.i don't frown.i don't put up a fight.cause they were much worse off.they couldn't play with a team.i could.

i trained all day during sec2.that was when my offense was at the peak high.but coach didn't notice me.i had problems.i didn't like the upper sec team.i ran away from training.at the end.i was chosen to play.but my attendance gave me a slap on the face.no one can help me.only myself.

sec3.i had the most memorable basketball camp.though tough.which i should have got used to.training did start to slack.mr loh didn't really push us that hard.i still rmb we were known for our tough training and tight scheldule.then i did start to slack.senior ma!.hee.i was selected.i guess because i have experience.i wasn't tough.i was rash.basketball wasn't basketball since then.O ya dixie and james came back this year.

sec four was what made us reliased what we should.or should i say must work towards to.we work hard for a year.real hard.friendly after friendly.woah.thinking back like impossible man!.ha.james left us.again!.but came back after a while.

sec5.i was chosen to play as main 5.i was prepared.i was ready.wasn't nervous.juying that match i was scoring like a star man.ha.On fire.lol.well unity that match also not bad i should say.that centre was tough.other matches suck!.ha.well i loved my team.sec3 that time wasn't use to how the younger ones play.because of the change in power.o well.time to end this.its isn't emotional i guess.hope not.ha.
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[today's the day for me to thank and think back][so glad i had you guys for this chapter of life]
[as i slowly close it]
Thanks:
James darreen
Dixie richie
Special thanks:Mrloh(of course man)

2006-06-20T23:37:00.000+08:00

20.06.2006

Its really tedious to wake up from my sleep.real tired after what the night gave me.my body still aching from the game.my ribs are hurting.mentally i feel kind of weird.ah crap.ha.can't seem to start doing work.mentally i always think of playing and playing.i need somewhere quiet.no sms.no msn.no games.but work and friends.fed-up with life.

im starting to break down.whoever is gonna help me.its going to be myself.

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[leaving silently with the wind]

2006-06-19T20:06:00.000+08:00

19.06.2006

Today's interhouse games day.wasn't rather prepared though.but had this dream that really tired me out.ever felt like that?.woke up real paranoid.shocked.tired.i can't discribe it.ha.back to the games.we wasn't winning for the first few match.rained earlier on.first two actually.i wasn't happy with one of the guy from another team.but real sorry i did what i shouldn't.shouldn't treat evil with evil.ha.then lost another match after that.won two other and ended the games.ending.2 win two lost.came in second.real glad though.it was actually for fun.ha.

After everything.went out with kgrace.took a bus to jp.too long for anyone one to wait.but we did.lol.went to get something for my stomach.real hungry man!.ha.after that took stroll at toyr'us.just playing with toys.skateboards.even prop toys.ha.fun though.got a hair cut at sandstorm.lol.end up cutting the hair about the same as ken.lol.crap.end up eating again.lol.lotsa food!.ha.

i uploaded my fave avenged sevenfold song.hope you guys like them.anyway.anyone know how to get not midi music codes?.ah another day has pass.one day less to live liao.ha.
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[Qn.what appears only during the early dawn till the late evening.is as big as a castle.is as light as a feather][correct ans wins a trip to two to las begas][:p]

2006-06-18T20:41:00.000+08:00

18.06.2006

Today whole day at home.sian.talk to yL about studying.LOL.kind of happy though.then kind of panic.because no time liao!.but don't know where start.started on abit of english homework.mum called.told me to come down and have lunch with her.told me its father's day.packed up my working mood and left.its was about 4 when i came back to this working table.i panic again.lol.i started to feel sleepy.took a bath and sang a bad day through out my bathe.ha.still feeling bored.can't start work.started to let my imaginations run wild.it stop when i fell alsp.forgot about the dream but i still rmb its about someone.argh.ah well.when i woke up its 7!.damn.im hungry and stuff myself with cheezel and can drinks.then back to work. wrote like just one page.

come to a point i just wanna blog.now lor.hawell today don't know is bad day or what.ha.what a bored day.
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[smile and end up crying]

2006-06-17T20:21:00.000+08:00

17.06.2006

la la la.lala.la.

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[happy day]

2006-06-16T21:04:00.001+08:00

16.06.2006

finally put myself together and blog.just type.ha.yesterday was so tired after watching the world cup.its kind of fun to watch with other people you don't know.ha.so when you scream no one knows who you are.ha.ok.terry made a good safe.owen didn't played too well.lampard too.ha.england overall wasn't on form.well but they win.ha.the last 20 minutes was like hell for tri.ha.today wasn't that bad.woke up and got a call saying where you.kind of like late for soccer.ha.rush through everything and anything.it was like 3pm in the afternoon.ha.great sleeper huh.ha.then at the bus stop.guess what awaits.BEES.lots and lots.everyone was like AH! EEE! oUCH! EHH! ARGH!.i didn't.because i ran away.hee.today soccer wasn't that bad.but lost throughout.ha.not that bad. maybe because i kind of know what im doing.ha.i don't know.just think defense's not the best tactics.ha.

Suffered through the whole game.can't get shit right.know if the play hard.must play harder.but.ha.there's always a but.lol.im not a scorer!.ya believe.that i can't score.faced it.lost it.ha.sorry!.lol.left after like 4 games?.not sure.weather's fine.today.great day for a game.lol.

Heard the song a bad day.found it quite meaningful.ok.very.hmm.brighten up your day.ha.wasn't happy with my com course it jams.it hangs.makes me ARGH!.ha.i just found out i've got lots of revision to do.homework to catch up.and temptations to stop.ha.well.i'll control.gonna do it right now.yeaps.O ya.its my birthday!.ha.lunar calendar de.

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[Please stay happy.like what you are before!.Ha.]

2006-06-14T03:40:00.000+08:00

14.06.2006

Ha.yesterday got up real late and tired.now's like 3 in the morning.almost 4.cant sleep.decide to enter an entry.yesterday went for a moive.the benchwarmer.ha.it was bloody funny.it was like half slapstick and half jokes.then went home.talk to james about 'art' while we're at the mrt station.hell.the ride was tiring man.reach home and switch on my com.feeling lazy to blog though.ha.feeling so bored.thinking about my studies right now.like not gonna make it like that.ha perharps a drive for me.ha.right now.must self-motivate liao.if not.there goes life.ha.

being entering really crap sad thoughts in here.kind of not nice.not sure.like a place to dispend all sad thoughts.ha.but thought about it.leave it to fate.i think leaving all this sad thoughts gonna make her feel real bad.maybe.ha.but.ha.be happy man.you still have too be happy.

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[My destiny]

2006-06-13T14:27:00.000+08:00

13.06.2006

yesterday lots happened.didn't have time to blog.ha.played soccer.damn tiring.old liao.ha.cramps all over.dixie.james.vincete.richie.got togther at mac to watch the wc.o ya and me.japan vs aus.the japs lost their cool after half time.final score 1-3.ha.unexpected.lost my bet with my mum.$10.leh!.ha.japan's no 13's not bad.ha.then italy match just dozed off.ha.missed it.slept at james place.i got the whole sofa.Bleh!.ha.
well yesterday activities did make me sleep well.ha.real nice.

please just tell me what you want.if its ok to tell you what i wanna say.hint me.
don't know if you're telling me something or what.i don't wish to be naive.not now. :]

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[i shouldn't be missing you][but i do]

2006-06-12T02:13:00.000+08:00

12.06.2006

Unsure of what to do.i closed my eyes.in the darkness.assimilateing.why feel is your importance.not what we see.true we feel.but your words.makes me so unreal.skies so high.out of kylon blue.i fear the sun.after the passive dawn.revengeful.but of what we really are.deep inside.love fools.
[not don't want.is couldn't][help]

Ha.real glad that i completed assembling parts and pieces of my blog back together again.not to mention i spent hours on it.lousia helped.thanks.its my first blog i setted up.by myself.its nice.ha.lucky i found the piano piece of krawling.real nice.who agrees.ha.
well.im also quite envious of what james did to his blog.really liked how the green and black blends in.nice.ok james.its a compliment ok.ha.stars for you. :p.

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[your walls closing in]